Colin & My scrapbook challenge

This month for my scrapbook challenge I decided to use pictures of my nephew Colin at the beach in the summer of 2007. He is one of the twins and he is a mess. He turned 6 not long ago and is in kindergarten this year. He and his twin sister have been in mother's mornings out programs for a few years and have always been in the same classroom. This year, they are in separate classes. I'm sure the separation will be hardest on him.

A few years ago he was in a mother's morning out type program and the class was supposed to be 'dancing'. I don't know if they were practicing for a parent's program or what but Colin refused to participate. He, like me, is an observer and often will not participate himself. His teacher sent a note home with him and when asked about it he said "I was dancing in my heart". I thought his response was funny/cute but sad in a way too. I find myself so often sitting on the sidelines of life - refusing to participate. I enjoy watching and I learn by watching but many times I find myself participating "in my heart" and not jumping in there when I really would like to but something holds me back. Sometimes it may be just that I think I can't do whatever it is or that I can't do it well or that I will get made fun of. I pray that he will start coming out of his shell and doing it earlier in life than I started. It seems like the older I get the harder it is in some respects but I am trying to get out of my shell a bit more and do things that I really want to do and not worry about what others think. I find myself enjoying myself a lot more when I just relax and am not focused on who might be watching or what they are thinking.